Losers By Choice
Work has finished. A harsh shift for the seventh time in a row. Another day of throwing twenty-four garbage bags, weighing sixty minutes each, into a bottomless pit. The soon to be employee of the decade. Never calling in sick, doing nothing noteworthy 365 days a year.
You are laying on the couch, again, or still. Nice and warm under your blanket of indifference. Dressed in your straitjacket of cognitive dissonance you embrace the failure you are establishing.
Pictures on the wall are evolving into empty frames, as you consistently work towards becoming an absolute nobody. Every time you place an extra candle on top of your birthday cake, your situation becomes a bit more dire, and honestly, a bit more pathetic.
Passive entertainment provides a comforting brain fog, keeping contemplation in a coma. Until the moment the screen turns black and you stare back at the opposite of your dreams.
Every coherent thought crossing your mind begs you to annihilate your arch nemesis. But it is hard to kill your opponent when you are your own worst enemy.
Before going to bed you vow to do better, in the morning you press the repeat-button. The solution is within arm’s reach, yet so are the remote control and cellphone. Apathy and a sad addiction have got you in a chokehold.
You’re most likely aware of how to get out of it. The formula is simple. Even a mathematician with dyscalculia would be able to solve it. The basics are that tiny steps will get you far eventually.
First, come to the realization that no-one is coming to save you from yourself. It depends on how much you value your own life and future. You’re the one responsible for the dust that weighs down the curtains, and it’s your duty to open them.
The second step is understanding that mobile devices should not be the first thing in your hands upon opening your eyes. Get out of bed, go to the toilet/shower/gym and make yourself a decent coffee and/or breakfast. Accomplish something and continue from there. Remember that you are a human being, before warping yourself into a fictive world once more.
The final step is recognizing that if you fall back into old habits it is possible to stop and do what you are supposed to do straight away. These addictions have a pause- and an off-button. Press the one that will benefit you in the long run.
Stop the binge watching, open the door, and be amazed. The seasons are far more impressive outside. That’s a promise.
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